Even before birth life was hard
An unwanted gift sent from 'God'
Even the earliest memory is too sad
Saw my mum being strangled by my dad
Growing up in this violence everday
And recieving it the same way
Getting beats for wetting the bed
And wetting the bed 'cause i was scared
In this vicious regular routine
As 'The Stick' became very familiar to me
We met on what became a regular basis
Every time I stepped outta place
I began to think i was a bad kid
And that I deserved it 'cause of what i did
But it wasnt my fault, or was it?
I'm sick of life,
Why the hell do you always pick on me?
What did i do to deserve this hurt and strife?
All I ever wanted was to fall in love,
To know what it felt like
To have someone love me back!
Why the hell do you always pick on me?
If you want to pick on me,
Go on ahead; you think I won't stop you,
But just remember when you need a friend
Go fuck yourself cuz I no longer care
So for all those times you've ever hurt me,
You'll regret them, and then you'll see
Just how much you've hurt me
Just how much you've made me suffer
Just how much you will regret
Ever even thinking of hurting me
8 Fragments of Kurt Cobain by Lan-crazy-girl, literature
Literature
8 Fragments of Kurt Cobain
1
Genius is not a generous thing
In return it charges more interest than any amount of royalties can cover
And it resents fame
With bitter vengeance
Pills and powders only placate it awhile
Then it puts you in a place where the planet's poles reverse
Where the currents of electricity shift
Your Body becomes a magnet and pulls to it despair and rotten teeth,
Cheese whiz and guns
Whose triggers are shaped tenderly into a false lust
In timeless illusion
2
The guitar claws kept tightening, I guess on your heart stem.
The loops of feedback and distortion, threaded right thru
Lucifer's wisdom teeth, and never stopped their reverberat
Forget him.
Forget his face.
Forget his kiss.
His warm embrace.
Forget the love that you once knew.
Remember he has someone new.
Forget him when they played your song.
Remember when you cried all night long.
Forget how close you two once were.
Remember he has chosen her.
Forget you memorized his walk.
Forget the way he used to talk.
Forget the things he used to say.
Remember he has gone away.
Forget his laugh.
Forget his grin.
Forget the dimples on his chin.
Forget the way he held you tight.
Remember he's with her tonight.
Forget the times that went so fast.
Forget the love that moved its past.
Forget he said he'd leave
: . - .Never say I love you
If it isn't really there
Never talk about feelings
If you don't really care
Never hold my hand
If you're gonna break my heart
Never say you are gonna
If you don't plan to start
Never look into my eyes
If all you do is lie
Never say hello
If you really mean goodbye
If you really mean forever
Then please say you'll try
Never say forever cause forever makes me cry. - . :
This poem is especially for you
To thank you for your friendship and everything you do
You have special qualities that I don't think you can see
I if were asked the reason why
You mean so much to me
I wouldn't know where to start
There are such a lot u see
You're such a special person
With qualities so rare
Compassion, understanding
And warmth beyond compare
You're thoughtful and considerate
Funny wise and kind
You can always make me laugh
And help me to unwind
You're full of optimism
Generosity and grace
And if everyone had a friend like you
The world would be a happier place
So often you can see
The funny side of things
Current Residence: N.Ireland Favourite genre of music: rock/alternative Favourite photographer: Murasicht hehe Favourite style of art: that one, nah not that one...THIS ONE! Favourite cartoon character: any of the looney tunes characters
Favourite Visual Artist
the one that draws good
Favourite Movies
any comedy or scary
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
dashboard confessional, vertical horizon, yellowcard, switchfoot, etc. all types really..
happy new year people..
its 2006, wonder what'll happen this year..
me driving my blue wee mini!! yay cant wait. just need the car, driving lessons and the brave person to teach me.
more fun
Lan..
okay well..i just added 2 new dev's and well i think there weird. i really shud be doing my assignments..got so many to do.
anyway i havent done a journal in ages...was out with friends last night..i was so cold just sat there talked away..gud enough craic. wish i brought my camera to take piccies of the fireworks :boogie: anyways i CANNOT!! wait to xmas! woow
:rudolph::santa: hehe
7 weeks and 5 days left... yay
well i shall get back to work
bye :work: